Christmas party

Yesterday I and some other spent half an hour with enraptured looks at our kids. Around 65 kids aged 3 to 5 were looking like angels playing for their families and making all of us so proud of them. P was the master of ceremonies and said all her lines perfectly but I know she wanted to be Jesus mother again :)

Dear Santa

Dear Santa
A long time passed since I last wrote to you, unless you count the letters written on P’s behalf. However, this year I have been a very good girl and there is something I really want…next week I am going to the hospital and I just want to hear “you’re fine”, come again in X months. Can you arrange for this, please???????? I really don’t want other Christmas presents, just a “good” medical report.
Ana

Migraine

Trying to work with a migraine and under the influence (of pain killers, not alcohol) is not funny…
I am really looking for this week to end :(

36

Time flies but I no longer complain of getting older (or say that I just turned 29 :)). I am grateful for another year, especially one without major health concerns, and just ask for more healthy years and to share them with P & P.

World Cup

I like football, sometimes I really love it, but I am sick with all the hysteria around the national team. Even if they would win the world cup, life shouldn’t turn around it…just check a newspaper or TV news…did everybody get crazy?

Bruxelles

Every time I return to Brussels I have the same sweet-sour feeling…I miss it deeply but I still have the same objections to the city I had when I lived there (the awful weather is of course my main objection). But I would like to return, I think I would be happier there than in Lisbon.

Tired

I need a break...

SLB

And the campionship is ours....it's party time!!!!!!!!!!!!! SLB!!!!!!!!SLB!!!!!!!!SLB!!!!!!!

Kindle

I love to read and space to store books is scarce in a tinny apartment. When Amazon.com decided to sell Kindle to non-US customers I bought one (I ordered on the same day that Amazon announced the sale…) and since then I have read more than 100 books there. I still prefer to have a book on my hands, but Kindle is an amazing device and a great way to get books without paying shipping fees (and having to wait for them to arrive). Of course, almost every book is in English, but the world is not perfect.

Tennis classes

Seeing P. playing tennis for the first time made me return back in time, when my father brought us to a tennis court to give it a try. A lifetime ago but still among my fondest childhood memories.

Memories

Listening to songs from my childhood (70-80’s) :)

Brussels

Back from Brussels, a sunny and rather warm Brussels, and I am already missing the place and the people. Some days compromises I must do are really difficult, but what we had before wasn’t working for any of us.
But I am already planning the next trip there, probably with a detour to visit friends in a nearby Grand Duché.

Birthday party

I’m exhausted but the kids seemed happy and had a nice time. Sometimes seeing smiles in there faces is enough make me forget everything else. They don’t need parents to spend so much money in a party, I know…

Sick

and drinking lavander tea...what a nightmare.

Childhood friends

Yesterday I met two childhood friends. I haven’t seen one of them for twenty years and I left with the strange feeling that she changed so much in this period…I think that all of us changed, but when you don’t see a person over a long period, the shock is bigger. But I really love to see her again :)

Father’s day

The 19th of March stop having a meaning to me a long time ago. If not for my child, I wouldn’t be remembered of its meaning. My worst nightmare is that she would suffer the loss of a parent early on life.

SLB!!!!!!!

What a night!!! But I am so happy!

Dignitas

In the newspaper yesterday a person with some degree of responsibility over palliative care criticized the decision of a cancer patient (with a life expectancy of one year or less) who decided to ask the Swiss organization Dignitas to help her die, saying that if she had access to quality palliative treatment she would not have decided to end her life.
Palliative treatment is not a magical solution…it can take some of the pain away and provide trained staff to help you go through the last months of life, but it won’t give your life or health back.
As a cancer patient I know how hard it is to see the physical changes brought by the disease and to go through all the treatments. In my case everything went well until now, but if that have not been the case, I wouldn’t like to see my life extended by medical treatment, or to definite day by day, without being able to have an autonomous life.
Why is it, for some, so dificult to understant that you are entitled to say Stop?

Thoughts

After being diagnosed with a cancer you see life from a different perspective, as I imagine that all cancer patients would say. What I used to take as granted now seems to be a gift…and even getting older seems to be a good thing.

Argh

Some people really don't know how the meaning of the word "private life".

Weather

I know, I know, I complain a lot about the weather but I really need to see the sun...I am wondering if I should move to French Polynesia where it's sunny and warm all year round (it rains a lot there but the sun is never away for too long...)

Life...

Someone died. In spite of his age it was someone's father and seeing her sorrow made me come back twenty years into the past, remembering how life changed in one second, the loneliness…After, life continued and it was been on the happy and special moments that I have been missing him the most, when I think who he would have loved to be here today.

Tired

After more than 6 hours in the health center and the hospital I would like to know why the national health system is so disorganized...

It's sunny

The sun is back, at last! If in Brussels the weather used to drive me crazy, three weeks of rain and grey weather in Lisbon really drove me mad…
I am not a winter person (if not for skying) as I need to see the sun to be in a good mod...I probably should move to French Polynesia and have spring like weather all year round...

Afraid...

I am fed up with being afraid…in January I must go through extensive medical examinations and I am scared of the results…and if my tiredness is due to being sick again and not of lake of resting and free time….
The problem of going through months of treatments, surgeries and so on is that now I know what I can expect if I have to go through all over again … and there is nothing funny on all of that.

I'm back (until when???)

I am in the mood for writing again...let's see if this time I will be able to